I want a hug too....

I want a hug too...
Came across this stature in the Keukenhof Garden, Netherlands. Couldn't resist the temptation to take a snap and give the couple a hug...as It was too cold...(I really needed a cuddle, better still from a real chap's :P)

Keukenhof, situated in Lisse, Netherlands, also known as the Garden of Europe, is the world's largest flower garden. Keukenhof is open from the last week of March to mid-May. I went there at the beginning of April this year. Not an ideal time to visit , as most of the flower bulbs were still not opened yet....The best time to view the tulips is around mid-April, depending on the weather.
The flower garden was the idea in 1949 by the then-mayor of Lisse, a small town south of Amsterdam. The idea was to have a flower exhibit where growers from all over the Netherlands and Europe could show off their hybrids. Keukenhof has been the world's largest flower garden that runs throughout spring for over fifty years. It is located between the towns of Hillegom and Lisse, south of Haarlem in South Holland, southwest of Amsterdam, and is accessible by bus and rail.

25th March 06

Tomorrow 25th March 2006 is an important day to me, for several reasons. Firstly my parents are going to Shang Hai again for vacation. Secondly my bestest friend is going back to Sabah, for good, after spending half a decade in West Malaysia and my other good pal in A-level is visiting China also tomorrow. And lastly My Europe trip is officially starting from tomorrow onwards....eheheh
A bit nervous now, not because of the butterfly in the stomach, rather this time I'm travelling with one new tourmate. She is actually my classmate. Didn't expect the trip to on, until we both signed up together during the MATTA fair 17th~19th 06. She was just randomly sending sms out to ask for a company for the tour, and I happened to be interested and wanted to go to such places. I called off my Australia trip at last minute, and joined the Europe tour instead, with her...
My first landing country is Switzerland. Its first destination in the country is Zurich. I think we will spend a nigth in Zurich before moving to Lucerne the next day.
The routes of our Europe tour is such : Switzerland --> Germany --> Netherlands --> Belgium -->France and lastly England. I'll try to update my journey and tour stories along the way.

Free of Charge???

Finally visited a GP last night, after falling sick for almost 3 days, without medication. It was yet a tough decision to make, coz I usually do not like to go to the clinic to see doctors. No reasons, frankly.
Hahaha, this reminds me of a medical proverbs : "doctors make the worse patients"! I strongly agree to that. I remember a professor who collapsed in the operation theatre, refused to be treated and managed in the ward, he insisted to go home on the same day. He finally got his will, but yet insisted that he could drive home by himself, all the way from Seremban Hospital to Shah Alam. Noway, we were going to let him drive, so we called up his wife. We waited until his wife arrived at the gate of the hospital, seeing him getting up the car and their car went out of sight! Then only we felt relieved.... foohh
My mum finally grabbed me to see the GP in town. This is our accustomed clinic whenever someone fell sick. The GP has been our family doctor for ages, for everyone in home, granny, dad, mum, siblings and nephew...
So, he asked me, during the consultation,
"why not get yourself treated at home?"
"I wish to...doctor, but I do not have any medications"
"I thought people always like to self-medicate?"
*grin*
I didn't know how to answer this question, so I replied with a smile...

At the dispensary, the nurse rejected my notes, and I was told that the consultation and medications were free of charge! I thanked the nurse and asked her to convey my gratitute to the doctor.

Half-day trip in Malacca

Didn't meet up with the Japanese friends whom I was supposed to, due to the delay of the train arriving at Seremban terminal. Was glad that they called me the next day for lunch and a Malacca tour.
We first paid a visit to these Japanese friends' ex-landlady, who stay just a walking distance from IMU. The two Japanese friends, Masaya and Mitsuhiko, have spent about one month in Malaysia last year for their final year elective. We clicked along quick well, as I was always very playful and "thick-skinned". I got a sourvenior from them from S'pore when I lend them eighty Singapore dollars and sent them off at the bus station Seremban on a Friday night. So sweet...hehe
This time around when they returned to Malaysia, we are all have already transformed from medical students to doctors! They were here just for a short while, about one-week stay. I managed to hang out with them for a half-day trip in Malacca. Was a fun, fruitful and contentful...outing, though one of them were not feeling so well after getting food poisoning in Langkawi. The culprit was believed to be the Ice Cendol, sold at roadside, near the jetty.
They flew back to Japan on 20th, to catch the attendance of their convocation the following day. May their future career journey safe and sound, all the best! and Congratulations! We all are doctors now.

We had Chicken Rice Balls for
dinner. It was my frist trial of the this famous local cuisine. Mitsuhiko has already tried it last year during his first visit to Malaysia. Feel really shameful...

We paid RM5 to take photos with
the "bleached" python :)


I was trying to kiss it...but was rejected.. :(

ailing...

Haven't been blogging for the past one week..fell sick actually...Huutchiiuu..
having body ache, sore throat and excessive tiredness mostly, apart the fluctuating appetite and occasional sneezes, coughs and running nose!
Am in the process of recovery, I think! Wish myself to get well soon :)

Referred a patient this morning...

"Doctor, you see, I have this problem bugging me for months...My left heel hurts when I walk...and look, it gets swollen now and the ointment given by the doctor didn't work at all!"

I was stopped by the cleaner as I came out from the public toilet at the jogging park in Seremban town. With a look of appeal on her face, I looked and examined her left foot. Yes, it was tender and swollen. I was thinking it was a Plantar Faciitis*, or just a bone spur** that's causing pain.

*Plantar Faciitis is a common,but painful foot disorder. It is the inflamation of the of the band of fiber tissues along the bottom of the foot from the heel to the ball of the foot. It is caused when the plantar fascia is strained over time, beyond the normal extension. The soft tissues of the fascia strech at points along it's length. It becomes inflamed and a bone spur can result.
**bone spur is actually the reaction of the body to the inflamation. Anyone can get heel spurs, but it is common among athletes that run and jump. It is more common in women and overweight patients.

My first encounter with this woman, who works at this jogging park, as a guard and cleaner, happened two weeks ago. She was chatting with the staff nurse, Sister Pxx, that takes charge of the CSU (clinical skills unit) of our university, while I jogged passed their way. I acknowledged them and she smiled at me in return. She knew that I'm a doctor, from Sister Pxx.

Under the Malaysia Medical Council, I'm not a registered doctor yet! Albeit graduated, I'm literally not eligible to treat patients and hence prescribed medications. However, I can't be so indifferent towards my "patient", I finally sorted things out by referring her to my former lecturer, Dr.xxh.
(Dr.xxh is a family physician, as well as my former lecturer, who's running the service clinic , at Jalan Rasah, Seremban, on Wednesdays)

Despite any prescriptions, hopefully, by doing so (the verbal referral), I'm doing good for her!

Are you too distinct or too nasty?

Are you having a lot of female friends? (sorry, this question only targets to female readers). If you answer yes, then I want to congratulate you. If your answer is no or somewhat ambiguous (as you are not sure you really have a lot of female friends),there are only two possibilities, either you are too nasty or too excellent!Either way, you can fall into these two extreme categories, really.
Studies have shown that females are a special species with lower threshold of jealousy and higher level of fastidiousness. If you are somebody who is talented, elite, elegant and outstanding,the chances of you having a lot of friends with same gender (females) is slim. Simply because, girls get jealous so easily, they won't allow their friends to be more excel than them in any aspects. However, don't be surprised that if somebody you know, who is not so superior and excellent, have got only a few friends.She might be a nasty person, until her female friends keep a distance from her.
So, if next time, you are still wondering how come you do not have many female friends,ask yourself first, are you too outstanding or too nasty?

When somebody hopes to see you

"I thought I will never see you again!" This was what came out from Professor Sxxa, when i met him at the corridor of 3rd floor in the uni. (3rd floor is the lecturers' rooms and offices, and also the link to our teaching hospital).
I'm forever associated with him, just because of a research project. I have been working along with him for a local research for more than 2 years. It was part of my academic activities in 3rd year, initially, then later became an ongoing extra curricular assignment.
He has the students strike fear character. He does not scold students. Rather he likes to nag students with a trace of sarcasm in his voice. This is why students run away from him. The moment they hear his voice from far, they would have slunk off the other direction.
After working with him, I started to realise that he's very fatherly and caring. Not really that horrible, respectful and dignified indeed. Ke keeps a fatherly eye on his students. Really...I begin to like him...and of course always look upon him as a role model :) (Absolutely confident to say this)
I wanted to let him know that I miss him very much. When he said this (I thought I'll never see you again) to me, I know he hopes to see me too :)
Don't you think this is very father-like :)

Is Green Tea green-coloured or tea-coloured?

Has anyone ever thought of whether Green Tea is green-coloured or tea-coloured? I wonder. Was crazily indulged in drinking tea recently...searching for all kinds of tea in the market and constantly trying them almost everyday, of different assortments.

So far, among the Chinese tea, this is my favourite. Parents bought it from China recently, during their annual trip to ShangHai early this year. I can say that noone in my family will resist tea...from my grandpa to the youngest, my nephew.

Hmm...One day, I was puzzled by this, when looking into the colour of the tea...

What colour do you see?

If I do not have colour-blindness (which in fact is confirmed by the lately done full medical check-up before starting my housemanship), it is tea colour. Well, but this is green tea!!!

I vaguely remember that the last time I drank green tea (though it was like 3 years ago) in a Japanese Restaurant, the green tea was green in colour!!! Really...Unless I have bought the expired or rottened or fake green tea,or is it because it has been added a lot of preservative or colouring?Until its colour has changed!Well, it still tasted good when I drank it, so I didn't doubt about its expiry or if it's decayed.

Anyone call tell what's wrong?Or whoever has expertise in tea, feel free to share your thoughts and opinion :)

Dim Sum

Eating Dim Sum at this Chinese restaurant near Ipoh Garden South is my family's routine in Sundays' morning! So there's no exception for this Sunday! We went there at about 9.45am, minus the time to look for a parking and seats and ordering, we finally got our dim sums ready at 10.25am. So, we ordered BBQ pork buns, deep fried Taro with Portuguese sauce, steamed prawns rice rolls, steamed prawn dumpling, steamed pork Saui-mai, mini egg custard tart, sticky rice, dried shrimp dumplings, turnip cake and a pot of "Duk Shu Heong"(Chinese tea).

This dim sum eatery outing was rather a weird and extraordinary one. As I started eating the sticky rice, I felt intense pain in the right wrist, until I have to ask the waitress to give me one fork and one spoon. Holding fork and spoon is less painful than holding a pair of chopsticks. Obviously my injured wrist was not healing well:( I have to switched into a Westernized way of eating Chinese cuisine!

Nonetheless, this restaurant is still our family favourite dining spot. We like the place for serving a variety of foods, its cozy environment and ideal location. In the morning, servers wheel their trolleys through the bustling restaurant and are happy to allow customers to lift up the lids of the bamboo baskets to identify the contents. The baskets or plates (containing two, three or four pieces) are inexpensive, enabling visitors to enjoy a diverse and speedy meal. Dim Sum is a Cantonese specialty of this Chinese restaurant. There are also dim sum desserts such as red bean soup, green pea soup, MomoChacha, honeydew and yam desserts, Fu-zhuk barley drink, Taufu Fah, red and white Malagkit sticky rice soup - all for the sweet-toothed.

Served throughout the daylight hours seven days a week, dim sum (literally meaning "to touch the heart") are snacks of freshly-steamed or fried Chinese "canapés". These remarkably-diverse examples of culinary innovation feature many different ingredients. There are scores of different varieties too, and the daily selection will always include noodles, porridge, steamed barbecued pork buns (cha siu bau) and other buns as well, soups and dishes.

And of course, everytime before we leave, we will usually order some foods for take-away. This time we bought custard tarts and steamed sticky rice served with mushroom and chicken.

Community service

Have done two community service projects in Batu Pahat during my final semester of clinical years. Both projects were actually some sort of health screening that was within the scope of our capacity as medical students. The activities included blood pressure , blood glucose, cholesterol, BMI measuring, visual acuity and colour blindness checking, counseling, health talks, deworming, referral of patients to clinics or hospitals and distribution of pamphlets.
I was the event co-ordinator in the first project, held in Rengit, off Batu Pahat, from 10th to 11th December 05. Basically I was doing all the odd jobs of the whole project, like helping in registration, counselling, screening, distributing pamphlets, referring patients to our lecturers and others (that lack of manpower). Enconterred a few interesting cases here. One 6 year-old child was vomiting away in front of our registration counter early in the day. He has not taken breakfast that morning before heading to our health screening spot, by foot for several kilometers. As he arrived, he ate some steamed sweet corns offered by his sister. Bouts of undigested corns spurted from the orifice, suddenly, while he was queueing up to register. I led her to see our paediatrician, which later he was sent home by one of our classmates, by car, to get some rest, instead of exposing to heat and sunlight.
Another lady of her nineties claimed to be well and healthy, found to have accelerated blood pressure, of 190/110mmHg. She was perfectly well and appeared aymptomatic all the while. In fear of cerebral-vascular accident (stroke) or transient ischemic attack, we later decided to start her on anti-hypertensive tablets instantly. She was also advised to stay at our tent, to be observed, before we allow her to leave, after stabilization and complete examination.

Another community project was held in Summit, Batu Pahat, one week later (18th December 05) whereby this time we targeted different population for health screening. Here, community of a higher social economic class and better health status was expected.
I was assigned to take charged of the paediatric station, to give Albendazole syrup to children for deworming and to carry out sporadic physical examinations on these children.

While examining a Chinese boy who gurgled shyly, "Omg, I couldn't palpate any testicle, is this boy having undescended testes*?"I told myself mutely, before alerting my colleagues. With repeated palpations and self-convinced diagnosis, I informed my friend that I need to refer the child to the surgical department of the hospital for orchidopexy**."Are you sure?"My colleague confronted me, and yet I was firm with my diagnosis. With repeated palpations from different hands, we agreed that it was just retracted testis. We finally could feel the testicles hanging in the groin. :P

*Normally before a child is born the testicle descends from very near to the kidney in the upper abdomen to the scrotal sac. In some children, the testicle may be located in a site either high up in the inguinal canal (groin) or in the abdomen. This is called Undescended Testes. If this does occur, a surgical correction needs to be done.
**A surgical procedure to bring down the testicle into the scrotum.

Later, I was called to help out in the counseling station, where a counselor who can speak Mandarin fluently was in demand. While counselling patients there, a funny thing happened. I spotted two teenage girls lining up to get their blood pressures (BP) measured, said this :

"Look, that guy doctor in the fourth roll, looks so charming and handsome!"

"ya..somemore he is so well-mannered!" (saliva drooling....)

"eh, we should go to the next line, i'm sure your BP will shoot up when he measures it! Then he will definitely tell you to rest there for a while before he takes a second reading again later!"

And as they were waiting in the queue, they used their handphones to snap several photos of my friend (the guy)...can't imagine that! Omg, what a daring act they were doing!!(maybe I'm just too conservative :P )

At the end of the day, out projects ran pretty well. We called it a successful and meaningful day, which spiced with a lot of humours and derisions :)

an unexpected email

Received an email today, which I do not remember knowing the sender of the mail at all !!! The funniest is - there are only two lines in the whole email "Still remember me ? Eh...You promise to forward me something...Just forward to me any "Pak Kua" News yah...heheheh" which do not sound to me. It seems like I'm a gossipmonger. Well, should this be true or not, I'm going to find out the identity of the sender and will figure out what she wants from me.
Have a nice day everyone :)

Because I'm A Girl

Because I'm A Girl is a Korean song sang by KISS (Korean female group singers). The lyrics of the song has been translated into English as such and Goo Hye Jin and Shin Hyun Joon were cast as the hairstylish and the photographer in the video.

It's impossible to understand
What's going through a guy's heart
You told me that you wanted me and now that
I've given you everything
You tell me you are leaving
You told me that it was the first time you felt this way
and said I was special
I believed you and it was my happiness
you should have told me that your feelings had faded
I had no idea, and i continue to depend on you

Although I said I hate you now, I'll be missing you
because I'm a girl, to whom love is everything...
They say that when you give a guy all he wants
he quickly gets bored
and now I know that's the truth...
And although I tell myself I'll never be tricked by love again
I fall in love, and my heart is broken again...
You should have told me that your feelings faded
I had no idea and I continue to depend on you *

repeat *
Although I said I hate you now, I'll be missing you
because I'm a girl, to whom love is everything... **
Please don't break the hearts of girls
who'll do everything for love....
I didn't know that living this life while being love would be so hard

repeat **
[Today we broke up
You told me to meet someone better than you, and be happy...
You're just like all other guys...
What happened to when you told me that you loved me?
Honestly I don't want you to be happy
What am I going to do if you really forget about me?
I'm in so much pain, more pain than I can bear...
Because I'm still in love with you.....] -- Goo Hye Jin's voice (speaking)

Please don't break the hearts of girls who'll do everything for love...
I didn't know that living this life while being loved would be so hard
Although I said I hate you now, I'll be missing you
because I'm agirl, to whom love is everything...

repeat **
[There's someone I'm in love with...]
repeat **
[Although I can't be with her now...
I'm still in love with her] -- Shin Hyun Joon's vioce (speaking)

In the video, Goo Hye Jin who works in a hairdressing salon and whose dream is to become a model bumped into Shin Hyun Joon, a photographer who was taking photograph of his client one day. Goo accidentally walked in between his flens and the target he was taking. One day, Shin patronized the salon which Goo is working at, and he left his bonnet there. Goo found it and thus decided to pass it back to him by paying him a visit at the studio. In the studio, Shin was so happy to be able to see Goo again, and he suddenly proposed Goo to be his model to let him take a few shots of her. They got together and became very close, ever since then. Until one day, as Goo wanted to reach for the film from the top of a shelf, an uncapped bottle of chemical fell and splashed right onto her eyes. She was immediately sent to the hospital.
He, felt terribly guilty as he was the one who had forgotten to recap the bottle of chemical and thus decided to leave.
When she woke up, she realized that she has lost her vision forever. Somebody donated his eyes to her while she doesn't know the donor at all. After she has resumed her vision, she became famous...

and it's thanks to the photographs she had taken at his studio. One day, she spotted him by far and decided to approach him. And it was only then that she knew that he had become blind, as he gave her his eyes so that she can see again. He had always been in love with her, for he had always kept close to him, the 1st photograph which he had taken of her.

A friend of mine forwarded this video to me. When I first listened to it, I was not able to understand what was being played and of course I could not really feel the singer's sorrow and sadness! As the English lyrics appearred on the screen, the whole song has suddenly become so meaningful...the sorrow and sadness emerged simultaneously from the bottom of my heart...

I quite agree with the lyrics, especially "Although I said I hate you now, but i'll be missing you, because I'm a girl, to whom love is everything", "when you give a guy all he wants, he quickly gets bored", and "it's impossible to understand what's going through a guy's heart" !

Because I'm a girl, I have also repeatedly told myself that I'll never be tricked by love. Yet, I fall in love and my heart is broken again...

http://youtube.com/watch?v=MRZweEjnUGU (feel free to download or view the video :)

Diamonds are girls' Best Friends!

Paris Hilton went on a spending spree in Los ANgeles during last Christmas. She dashed from one designer boutique to another, blew a total of RM373,000 within 2 hours as friends looked on. She splurged mainly on Louis Vuitton which later made her to struggle in squeezing all her bags into her car.

She attended a jewelry showcase lately which most displays (earrings, necklaces, charms, bracelets, ankets, rings...) were made from diamonds. Being a famous international supermodel, she's forever the focus of any celebrative events or functions. When asked about her favourite gems, she spontaneously said "diamonds". To her, diamonds are girls' best friends and they symbolize eternity. They enhance a woman's beauty and elegance! So, what do you think?
Eh Hmm, I personally do not fancy much about jewels and I rarely wear them. I think they are not the essential elements of a woman's beauty, especially when talking about inner beauty. They are just reflective of your social status, your wealth, your good taste (albeit I'm not able to appreciate) and your pursuit of material comforts! Hahaha...maybe I'm just somebody who is after spiritual needs more than any other things!

To tie, or not to tie?

I remember the Professor whom we invited to be one of the judges for a debate "To Tie, or Not To Tie?", gave a very humorous speech before announcing the results. He claimed that the title of the debate was actually quite confusing in the sense that it can mean to tie the knot (to get married), or to tie the Fallopian tubes* for tubaligation*? He was thinking of the latter when he saw the other O&G professor, Dato' S, attending and judging the debate as well. (This O&G professor is his old friend). However, Dato' S who was sitting next to me that day, whisppered in my ears "nowadays I don't tie the Fallopian tubes anymore, I clip them instead!" [The fallopian tube is a narrow muscular organ arising from the uterus and ending just next to the ovary. The inner tubal lining is rich in cilia, the microscopic hair-like projections that beat in waves and move the egg to the uterus.
Tubaligation is the general term for any surgical procedure that blocks the fallopian tubes to prevent pregnancy. ]
The meaning of the title of our debate was actually "should medical professionals wear ties or not?" The idea derived from the ongoing controversial issue that ties carry significant source of infection to the patients in the ward, meanwhile those doctors who practise professionalism insist on the culture of wearing ties despite its risk of harbouring germs. It is still a sizzling hot arguable issue to date!
The British Medical Association (BMA) has recently warned all the doctors to wear CLEAN ties when on duty. It did not abolish the rule of wearing ties as part of a doctor's so called "dress code", but it did strongly urge all of them to wash and change their ties daily, to reduce the infection rate of MRSA (Methicilin resistant Staphylococcus aureus). Studies have already proved that the germs that nurture on ties can survive up to 80 days! Only by frequently washing and changing ties can we prevent the spread of this superbug that has long been recognised to be resistant to antibiotics. Besides ties, doctors' white coats were also found to be potential culture media for most bacteria. During one of the BMA meetings held last year, doctors in the National Health Service (NHS) were informed that the traditional white coat might in fact be the guilty agent in the transmission of the super bug MRSA, besides ties. There is also a reported move to abandon the white coat for the green scrub vest used in North America. Perhaps, the Ministry of Health Malaysia should also study the evidence for these, both ties and white coats!

Reptiles

"Aquaria KLCC Presents the Reptilian Encounter 1st~31st March", was visually attracted to this headline while flipping through the Star newspaper. "It's a close encounter you don't want to miss! Cold-blooded creatures make Aquaria KLCC the coolest place to visit this March as we showcase the world's most exotic reptiles. Catch our reptilian friends, and over 5,000 other fascinating aquatic and land animals live in Aquaria KLCC! " I have no idea at all since when was this Aquaria established? (Did not go to KLCC lately). Must be quite some time, if not the recent one year, coz I remember two of my Japanese friends who visited KL a year ago, showed me a photo a Python wrapt around their bodies taken in KLCC last year February. Hahah..I must admit that I'm very idiotic about reptilians. Maybe I can only tell if it is a King Cobra, python, crocodile, or lizard, that's all, if you want me to name them :P
So, I guess I should make zoos or aquaria to be one of my sightsee destinations when I go foreign traveling again next time.

Jersey

"Eh, I suka u punya jersey la, cantiknya!" This was the first opening sentence from a Petrol station worker when I just opened the car door and ordered "full tank please". I came across this female futsal state player (Negeri Sembilan) in a Shell Petrol Station near Seremban Two. She is a jersey collector, apart from her role as a state player. Her name is Yus. I was wearing this jersey which I got from the merchandise shop in Manchester United Stadium, Old Trafford, Manchester, when I visited England last year. I bought another grey polor shirt from there also. Not that I am a die-hard fan of Manchester United, but I'm just a pure jersey lover (like Yus).
Yus always practises futsal in the futsal park at Jalan Rasah. No wonder I have never bumped into her before. I used to play futsal as well, but in the stadium near Makro. I played with my other batchmates or schoolmates (often mixed team) very often when I was in 4th year and during the first half of my final year before graduation. We got subsidized partially by IMU sports council for renting the courts. The usual charges for one court is RM25 per hour. We usually payed only RM1 per person for one evening. Yus invited me to join their female team for training, as she could hardly find girls who actually like sports (especially foorball or futsal). I would like to, if I'm offered to do my housemanship in Seremban General Hospital. Nonetheless, she asked me to contact her other friends in Ipoh for training when I start working in Ipoh in May. What a graceful new acquaintance with a futsal enthusiast today!

Brassiere

Came across this interesting news in a local Chinese newspaper (published in Perak Edition) yesterday. It emphsized on choosing the correct Brassiere to wear among school girls! It emphasizes that colourful and striking bras should not be worn to school as the white-coloured school uniforms tend to reveal them easily.
The article was actually written based on the feedback on the incidence whereby a teenage girl was punished to take off her bra with the school uniform still on for that particular whole day long. She was accused to have broken the rules by wearing colourful bra that was seen through the white shirt and distracted other students. She was told to remove the bra, not allowed to wear it for the rest of the day in the school. It's one of the recent hot news among the press after the "Tammy NYP" incidence.
As a conclusion, all the school girls are advised to dress decently (besides having knee length or beyond knee length skirt, and well-fitted white shirts {not too tight basically} ), by wearing peach, light yellow, beige, or skin-colour-alike bras.

Handicapped

Injured my right wrist while playing beach volleyball few days ago on the Redang Island. I was severely depressed on the next day after the injury as I had to give up scuba diving. Apart from treating this Redang trip as my last batch trip before convocation, Scuba Diving was part of the reasons for me to land on this island!

My mood has turned better in the afternoon, after a nice nap on the beach while my friends were away in the Marine Park for snorkeling. I did not go snorkeling as well, for the reason of not abling to manipulate my right hand easily and in case of emergency under the water, there is a risk of drowning!

Well, however, I still had a good time on my own that afternoon. Nothing is more relaxing than couching in slumber on the beach, with no disturbance at all for almost 2-3 hours...enjoying the breeze and listening to the seawaves...

I thought I have already overcome the fact that I injured the rightwrist and now I'm allowing time for it to heal. Who knows, I dropped a cup of fruit juice this morning, and spilled its content all over the table...I couldn't hold the glass firmly due to pain, and weakness of grasping the cup properly. The feeling appeared again - feeling of useless, functionless, handicapped, disabled...etc And later in the afternoon, I started to worry about my right hand, in fear of the trauma giving this dominant hand some residual weakness and some kind of pain caused by traumatic/degenerative osteoarthritis later in life.

I was worried about not being able to hold scissors, cutting needles, suture material, scalpel blade, forceps...since I cannot hold the kitchen utensils (forks, spoons, cups, chopsticks) properly at the moment.I will seriously be demoralized if my right wrist heals with deformity or some residual weakness :(